I was recently very touched of the gestures of 1 of my bestest buddies, Ivy. There's still 1 month away from my birthday & she already planned ahead of the celebration for me, buying me cake, having lunch & karaoke together, with her hubby, Bernard. She's more enthusiastic than me. hehe! & having wanting me to dress up to the nines in the red checkered dress which i bought recently, with her. Also volunteered to do make-up for me. hehe! All these, I'm so overwhelmed. Coz' all these years, nobody actually did that for me, I always feel that I'm being taken for granted. I've always been a person who don't really bother much about my birthday, just enjoy the companionship of a few good friends is good enough for me. If not, I'll just treat it like any other day & thank the Lord for bringing me to this earth.
Partly was the reason that I was feeling quite dejected & troubled recently because of a close friendship that was tested. For some reason, me & this friend drifted away for some reason early this year. But God is good, it became a blessing in disguise! Subquently after that, I became closer with other friends- like Ivy, Annie & Sindy. They bring out the best in me & cherish me as a friend & appreciate me. & during this time, I changed alot. Frequent shopping with Ivy- she constantly encouraged me to try on new clothes, new things, which previously i wouldn't have done that, when I was with that particular friend, who took me for granted. I was too close with her & her constant consciousness of her weight really get on my nerves. I spent most of my times reassuring her & encouraging her & trying to convince her that she's not fat. :O So darn tiring! I became quite affected & influenced by her negativity & input on myself unknowingly & subconsciously. By being apart from her this period of time, I learnt alot of myself. Thank God for the friends He gave me & my hairstylist, Auntie Baozhen, I gradually began to accept the way that I look, as a result, embracing my curves! :D It was a total healing for me. I tried on new things - permed my hair, dyed my hair, changed my wardrobe. It was a really sigificant change for me, people around notice the obvious different, especially my mum. She's constantly bugging me & asking me if I have a boyfriend now. :O
I realized one very important thing - Us women need to love ourselves, treat ourselves well. Self-acceptance. & when we look good, we definitely feel good! Thats a fact! It shouldn't be taken for granted for any reason. Looking good, for our own sakes, not for anybody else. With that, the confidence naturally comes in, amazing! :D Not all of us have figures that is killed for like models & celebrities but accepting our bodies & how it functioned, boost our confidence & healing for our souls. Coz we only have 1 body, we either take good care of it or abuse it. Being too conscious of the weight issue is definitely unhealthy- depriving oneself of the good food & deemed it as sinful. If so, condemning oneself,what's worse than that. :O But not conscious @all & just over-indulge without proper diet & exercise is equally unhealthy. Everything is about balance. coz without it, we tend to become extreme in an area. & I thank God that I finally found it! :)
For my birthday this year, I'm definitely looking forward to spend time with my close friends & family, with people who genuinely care & concerned for me. :)
